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"Hi My Name is Ethan."

"Hi Ethan."

"It's been 148 days since my last post."

Yeah, sorry about that. I'm sure you're thinking, what the hell happened?

It's been a long five months, let's see if I can get you up to speed. In the movies they'd call this a music montage:

Fade in. Fast edits of me at a bar. Drinks, boys, smiles, dancing. Then the beginning of a dramatic score. I can feel someone burning a hole in the back of my head. I turn. Seth. Our eyes lock. This is the first time I see him since he found out I slept with his boyfriend, now ex. For a moment the music stops, nothing but silence and the sound of a heart beating. Bah-boom, bah-boom. If looks could kill. Cut. I'm at a different bar this time, walking through a maze of people, their faces one big blur. Just as I get to the other end, I see him, flirting with another boy. He looks at me. Cut. More encounters. All the same. No words spoken, plenty said. You see me in my bedroom, I'm texting Zach but get no answer. A quick shot of me on a date. Cute guy, nice restaurant. Then just as he signals the waiter to come over, you catch me sneaking a peek at my watch. Now I'm at my cubicle working hard. I bury myself in more and more projects. A couple of parties that end in good but entirely unmemorable sex. At the end always the same scenario: I wake up in the middle of the night, quickly get dressed. As I open the door on my way out, a thin ray of light pierces through the darkness. A quick flash of a man's face deep in sleep. He's handsome. I leave. More work, more dates, more sex. The pages of a calendar peel away as footage of my life runs underneath. April, May, June, July. I'm in front of the computer. Close up of the screen. It's blank. I shut down my laptop. Go to bed. As I turn off the lights, fade out.

I've tried writing. But nothing. As though two years of blogging have left me bone dry. And so I've spent the last few months rehydrating with Didion, White, Saramango, Spanbauer, A. S. Byatt, Eugenides (if my style seems different it's because I'm reading Middlesex right now. Fucking masterpiece).

Maybe it's just what the doctor ordered. A long summer break. Now it's time to write again. If this were a TV show, I'd be starting a new season just about now.

Announcer: Next Monday... On Shades Of Gray...

"You ever been in love?"

There are moments that can change a life...

"I don't know, something about him. He's different."

The episode that will have everyone talking...

"I think we should go on a formal date, you know, the All-American dinner and a movie..."

The real adventure is just beginning.
An all new S-O-G.
Monday at 9/8 Central.

There have been some interesting moments in the last few months. A stuffed animal given to me by Cameron on my visit to LA. Gray fuzzy little elephant with human eyes. Cameron who heard I don't do furry toys decided I needed someone to keep me company at night. One of the more romantic presents I've ever gotten. Also a midnight drive to the beach where under the moonlight Cameron proceeded to pull out his iPod, place the headphones in my ears then hit play to Snow Patrol's Chasing Cars. As we're lying on the cold sand on dark Los Angeles night, huddled under a blanket, a kiss, one line.

"Will you lie with me and just forget the world?"

Cameron is sure to have a recurring role this season.

Stay tuned.

Comments

[... and then God created Men!]

Glad you're back mate.
Love the "next on SOG part" and the "wake up midnight, light, handsome" part. So well described.

[Martin]

yay!!!!!
Soooo if this is season 2, when should I expect to find Season 1 book at Barnes & Noble?

The downtime gave me time to put these in book form and watermark the pictures as a background.

After starting that and putting it into a leather bound journal, many a people in my office have come by and stolen it to read through. They are very big fans.

And now everyone seems to be sharing the Salt story at parties. haha

Glad ur back!

[G Cracker]

Cameron sounds like a total sweetheart and absolutely a catch. Good for you! :)

Don't worry, you certainly have not lost your touch for writing in your absence, still as vibrant as ever!

[Jay]

All I have to say is wow. Thank God you're back and your writing is just as good as it ever was, even if the format may adjust somewhat.

Welcome back!

[Eric]

Great blog! I added you to my blogroll. I'd appreciate it if you'd consider linking back.

Most blogs allow you to enter your blog url in a special field in the comment section. If the blog doesn't have that feature, then you will also need to put my url in the comment.

[Bernardo M.]

I periodically checked your blog... waiting for your comeback. And it's finally here!

Congratulations.

[olander badaso 4rm ph]

it's nearly a month now and still you haven't do something.

ur bad. I am constantly looking forward for that post you promised.

anyways welcome, again.

[TED]

Biggest tease ever.

[Tony]

Well, I think the fact that over 30 others have taken the time to keep seeking you out, waiting, hoping, and rejoicing for your cyber-return with these glowing comments should be just the kick in the ass you need to share your gift on a more regular basis. Have at it buddy - you have much to share.
fondly
T

[Baby Ags]

MMMM!!! MMMMM!!!! CAMERON IS ONE SEXY, SMOOTH ASS BITCH. I gotta use that sometime. HEH.
btw, so great that you and your lovely blog.

Take care Ethan,

^_^

[Baby Ags]

... are back. =p

[Ángel Manuel]

I haven't read all your post, but I do use the same resources -figurative language- you used to use in your lines... love when you said :"Will you lie with me and just forget the world?" That is so powerful in meaning that is almost orgasmic.

[Bernardo M.]

Ethan,

I've been waiting for a new post for months now. And I'm sure many others like me are hoping for you to get back to writing.

You must have so much to tell us since your last post... c'mon, don't be selfish and share it! Your faithful audience awaits you.